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Today is a good day to be outside. Working and lis

Today is a good day to be outside. Working and listening to music in the backyard!

Weekend Recap! Pool party with my friends, new and

Weekend Recap! Pool party with my friends, new and old enjoying that Cali weather! My Saturday hike in the neighborhood was breathtaking...and I discovered a creek! On Sunday baked a delicious vegan peach cobbler...but forgot to pick up ice cream😄 overall a fun and active weekend. Oh and I picked my first watermelon from the garden! How was your weekend?! #cali #friendship #sunshine #poolside #authorsofinstagram

September—Mother Nature’s time to let got of t

September—Mother Nature’s time to let got of the leaves that weigh her down. It makes you think: What do I need to change? What should I be grateful for? What do I need to let go of?

This month also includes World Childless Week, a global movement that seeks to raise awareness of and support the childness not by choice (CNBC) community: anyone who is childless despite their longing to be a parent, or who has suffered the sorrow of a miscarriage or stillborn. Including me.

I could conceive easily enough. I felt overjoyed, ready to bring a child into this world and shower it with so much love. I lost every baby, gaining instead pain and devastation. After five traumatic miscarriages, I could no longer imagine trying again. The accompanying D&C was torture. The emotional pain was worse. I grieved; they were my children. Depression, loneliness, shame, and frustration engulfed me.

Everyone around me was having children. I plastered on a smile and celebrated with them. How could I tell them that I was dying inside? Days would pass in a blur of tears or numbness. I missed my children, but I also missed the upbeat person I used to be. I began therapy and joined online support groups, which pulled me back from the brink and helped me find my way again.

Claude and I decided to live a childfree life by choice: we were already a family and always will be. We invest in our marriage, pursue our careers, and can travel, sleep in, go out, be spontaneous, treasure our godchildren, and do whatever we desire. We try to help the next generation via Elevate Foundation. Isn’t the whole point of life to leave this world a bit better than as we found it?

Childfree adults are judged as being selfish, incompetent, ignorant, unmotherly, and unworthy. Yet you and I know the depth of our love, pain, and worth. My journey through infertility to acceptance, self-love, and peace has been a long, bruising experience, yet I have emerged stronger, wiser, and fuller. We are not alone, and we are no less worthy because we are childless.

#childlessness #childlesswomen #worldchildlessweek #infertility #childlessandhappy

I live in San Diego and never take the time to enj

I live in San Diego and never take the time to enjoy our beautiful beaches...but this weekend I got out and had a long refreshing and reinvigorating walk with a friend. The sand...smell...waves were amazing. Enjoying nature always make me feel good and adds to my mental health! What are somethings you do for your mental health? Share on the comments below! #enjoylife #beachlife #moonlightbeach #mentalhealth

Nothing like starting out the day with a beautiful

Nothing like starting out the day with a beautiful hike surrounded by nature! I always find that if your having a bad day getting outside changes your perspective. So enjoy the beauty around you!

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